The Stand off! con'td

So I have not heard from him since Friday. Of course I'm not calling! He said some mean shyt to me. Mind you I said some mean shyt first and back to him. But I am still more hurt I think. I am curious to know the outcome of all this. I have been a praying fool. I need prayer just to get through the day. I mostly pray for peace and strength. Peace so my imagination won't go crazy and strength for my heart. Why do people hurt people they say they love? He said he loved me even while we were fighting. Why can't I believe him anymore? What does love mean to him? I wish I knew!