I have to be honest...

I think today is going to suck! I have tried to put on a brave face, but every time I think about it I feel all panicky and sad. I mentioned  that getting through the holidays was rough and it was, but as Valentine's Day approached I've gotten more and more anxious.

I don't want to hang out with friends, I don't want to hang out with my sister, and I don't want to hang out with some dude I just met. V-day is special. It always has been to me. I like dressing in red, be it a red dress, a red blouse or a pop of red from my shoes. I always wear something red on that day. I liked waiting for what the day would bring. I like going to dinner at a nice restaurant and being out with all the other couples in love. I like shopping for lingerie. I like the attention. So yeah this Valentine's Day is going to suck! NOT! LOL!

HAPPY STORY ALERT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
One of the best Valentine's Day I ever had started with theCaptain bringing me gifts to my job. I'm at work minding my own business, working. We had already spoken earlier that morning and I was seeing him that night. So around 10:00 am he called me again and said come outside. I was like okay. I came out, looked around and didn't see anything. Then I hear the roar of his work truck as it was coming around the corner. I look and he is hanging off the side of the truck with my flowers in one hand and hanging on with the other. He jumps off the truck before it comes to  a complete stop grinning and all pleased with himself.

He starts walking toward me in his work uniform, all fresh cut, shaved looking and smelling so good! He really surprised me! I could not stop smiling and laughing and clapping like a dang seal.

I wish this seal was smiling. LOL!

As he is walking up to me... I ran up to him and hugged and hugged him and then we kissed. It was so romantic and special. Very "Officer and a Gentleman." and Pretty Womanish

I saw these movies and have been in love with the final scenes ever since. I'm not sure if we saw them together, but I was shocked that he fulfilled this secret fantasy for me. He brought flowers, a teddy bear, candy and a card. That V-day we didn't go out to a restaurant. I wanted to cook for him! He had spent so much, and had made my LIFE!!! at the time. I even told him, "you made my life today!"

That Valentine's Day will always be a very special memory for me. With a little tiny bit of sadness in my heart, I am also smiling at the memory as I type this.

But with faith I hold on to the FACT that my love for this day will not be in vain. I WILL be able to share another Happy Valentine's Day story. P.S. This is my last woe is me story about THIS!

I wish all of you a Very Happy Valentine's Day  : )