Sunday, March 27, 2011
It's Sunday How bout a scripture and a song?
Psalms 100:4 Enter into his gates with thanksgiving, [and] into his courts with praise: be thankful unto him, [and] bless his name.
This is a tantrum. On a Sunday? o_O You have been warned!
Lately, off and on I've been in a funk! I am bitter, angry, sad, disgruntled, frustrated, sensitive and bratty. I try to keep this blog light so I don't really talk about my woes, but I have really been going through with my job situation. Since my layoff in 2008 I didn't do a post about it. I just took a long blog break. I've had a few temporary assignments here and there. Some last for months, some last for weeks. When I'm not working I hit my savings to live on. So when I go on one of these job interviews it's major for me!
I am so fearful lately that at some point things won't meet up and I'll end up homeless or lose something. I'm tired of downgrading my cable, making payment arrangements, staying in, not being able to travel like I used to, not being able to dine out regularly, not shop like I want to when I really shouldn't be shopping at all.
Saving every dime is tiresome! I still do some things. I have to treat myself. If I didn't I think I would go nuts.
I can't be my fabulous self. I can't be my fabulous self. I can't be my fabulous self and I hate it.
I really hate my life right now! I'm mean really, who is unemployed this long without a permanent job?? This is just not me! I have soooooooooo many things I want to do that I can't. I feel like I'm dying! dramatic much? My birthday wish was to get a job. How sad is that?
Once again I have another interview and I'm hoping this one pans out. The competition for these jobs is ridiculous! This economy sucks! California was hit hard and I am completely appalled that I am affected by this. Why me????????????????????????????????????????????????????
Now that I've said ALL that I must still thank God! Because even though this is pretty bad to me. I must be grateful because like the song says somebody somewhere is worse off than me.
I'm taking it way back with Walter Hawkins this Sunday. "Be Grateful" is a song that just touches me every time I hear it. It actually makes me cry and convicts my spirit! I need to be more grateful because I haven't lost anything and I'm still living pretty good. Because even at its worst it's not as bad as it could be. Please pause the music player and Enjoy!