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Sunday, March 27, 2011

It's Sunday How bout a scripture and a song?


Psalms 100:4 Enter into his gates with thanksgiving, [and] into his courts with praise: be thankful unto him, [and] bless his name.

This is a tantrum. On a Sunday? o_O You have been warned!

Lately, off and on I've been in a funk! I am bitter, angry, sad, disgruntled, frustrated, sensitive and bratty. I try to keep this blog light so I don't really talk about my woes, but I have really been going through with my job situation. Since my layoff in 2008 I didn't do a post about itI just took a long blog break. I've had a few temporary assignments here and there. Some last for months, some last for weeks. When I'm not working I hit my savings to live on. So when I go on one of these job interviews it's major for me!

I am so fearful lately that at some point things won't meet up and I'll end up homeless or lose something. I'm tired of downgrading my cable, making payment arrangements, staying in, not being able to travel like I used to, not being able to dine out regularly, not shop like I want to when I really shouldn't be shopping at all.

Saving every dime is tiresome! I still do some things. I have to treat myself. If I didn't I think I would go nuts.
I can't be my fabulous self. I can't be my fabulous self. I can't be my fabulous self and I hate it.

I really hate my life right now! I'm mean really, who is unemployed this long without a permanent job?? This is just not me! I have soooooooooo many things I want to do that I can't. I feel like I'm dying! dramatic much? My birthday wish was to get a job. How sad is that?

Once again I have another interview and I'm hoping this one pans out. The competition for these jobs is ridiculous! This economy sucks! California was hit hard and I am completely appalled that I am affected by this. Why me????????????????????????????????????????????????????

Now that I've said ALL that I must still thank God! Because even though this is pretty bad to me. I must be grateful because  like the song says somebody somewhere is worse off than me.

I'm taking it way back with Walter Hawkins this Sunday. "Be Grateful" is a song that just touches me every time I hear it. It actually makes me cry and convicts my spirit! I need to be more grateful because I haven't lost anything and I'm still living pretty good. Because even at its worst it's not as bad as it could be. Please pause the music player and Enjoy!

5 comments:

Jameil said...

Hundreds of thousands if not millions of people have gone that long without a job. And without even long or short ones in between to supplement. Or any savings to fall back on. Of COURSE it's hard! No one wants to feel like no one wants them and they'll never be fully employed again. But you will be employed again. Tomorrow's song should be NKOTB, "Hangin Tough." (Word verify: leminap. Translation: It's the middle of the day, I'm sleepy, LEMINAP!!)

GorgeousPuddin said...

@Jameil
I know...but each time one of these temp jobs ends...I just get soooo disappointed. I'm weary and I know in the big scheme of things I'm doing alright...but yeah :(

Okay the word veri is just pickin on me! LOLOL! I swear I can't sleep at night and lately have been needing a nap in the afternoon.

Thanks for the words of encouragement! Really NKOTB??
Bwhahahahaha!

Reggie said...

I feel you, but I have more than a few friends out of work right now; and a few family members too.

Most of us have degrees, but that doesn't mean anything. My sister recently lost her job of 20 something years. They just up and moved and although she got a severance package, it sure as hell won't last forever.

It's hard to find a job these days. I have friends and family that are staying in relationships that died long ago. Things are tight all over. Trust and believe it could be far far worse.

I recently sold my house after having it on the market for a year. I have mixed emotions about the sale, but hey, I've got friends who went through short sales and foreclosures. I feel fortunate being able to come out of that sale in one piece.

Let's be real, during the last few years times have been tighter than '29.

Keep the faith, I'm sure everything will work out for you in the end.

GorgeousPuddin said...

@Reggie
Thanks man! I hope so! I have a few relatives that were all unemployed at the same time as me and they now have perm. jobs. I'm the one with the degree and degree in progress and can't seem to get anything...It's VERY frustrating!!

You still managed to make me laugh!! Do you mean 1929??? Who the heck knows how that was? LOLOLOL!

Congrats on coming out on top with the house!

alana said...

Girl I know how it is,praise him thru the good and the bad stay faithful cause he has something in store for you.It's hard but you have to keep ur head up and really stay faithful.