This Ni**a part 3

So now he not talking to me! I called him this morning and he said he was in a meeting and would be calling back. But he didn't. So today I felt like being some other chick so I called more than once. He did not answer so now I'm pissed. Let me give you the back story. So two weeks ago he pissed me off and I did not take his calls for 3 days. He was frantic leaving messages called the house, questioned his mother (were friends) etc. So I finally texted him then I called. I was tripping about two things and didn't really convey to him what Iwas pissed about. So our conversation ended with him thinking it was some work sh*t. But it wasn't. It was sooooo totally him. Fast forward a week. He pissed me off again so I stopped taking his calls he only called three times then he left a message saying he would not be calling me again. And he didn't. So I tried to be on some pimp sh*t and not call him either but I began to miss him too much so after a week I caved and called. I think doing the childish sh*t damaged my spot. He thought I was different and I really am but here I am doing the kiddie stuff I be telling my friends not to do. So now he is not talking to me and I really can't be mad at nobody but myself cause I started it. He bringing down my Carrie high!

IT's PAYDAY Bitches!!!!

Okay so it was payday and I previously mentioned that I have an addiction to shopping. I LOVE to shop LOOOOOVE IT. Anyway I bought the hottest brown leather jacket online. ( not ebay) LOL! I hope it matches the brown boots I just bought. It's not even summer and I'm planning on how hot I will look for fall. Fall is my favoright season. Once I really get this blog thing down pictures are coming Yea!!!

SEX AND THE CITY!!!!!!

The movie was GREAT!!!!!! Loved it. GREAT GREAT GREAT. I love the idea of LOVE, and Sex and City makes you keep hope alive for LOVE. In case someone has stumbled onto my blog I won't spoil it for you. Needless to say I will be seeing it again. LOVED IT!!!!!!!!

Addicted to Shopping

So why can't I stop shopping? I will/can buy something at every store from low end to high end, I LOVE to shop. It is more of an addiction. I call it retail therapy but I am really addicted. So in addition to stores I found eBay awhile back. Why do I go to the site almost daily? My paycheck is always half spent because of the stuff I plan to buy every month. It's ridiculous! A bargain? Really? I love designer clothes, shoes, and sunglasses. But my house is not completely furnished and I have been there three years. I need to reset my priorities don't you think?

This Ni**a part 2

So today we had this long conversation about his problems. My heart totally goes out to him when we have these heart to hearts. I try to offer solutions because part of my problem is I'm a fixer. I am always trying to fix other peoples sh*t even to my own detriment. The other side of my brain knows that half the stuff he complaining about he brought on himself! So I am torn, I want to help him because I love him but then he is reaping for all the dirty sh*t he did to me! That's what's crazy! I still love him and want to help with some sh*t he did to me!?

Sex and the City movie Yea!!!!!

I can't wait for the Sex and the City movie!!! I am so excited just to see the clothes! I want to play hooky that day or at least go in late. That's how excited I am. I want to see the first show! I almost bought the black and white dress Miranda has on in the previews I could kick myself for not buying it.

This Ni**a right here!

Welcome to my blog! I need a place to vent about my crazy relationship with my dude, fella, guy, boyfriend, homie, lover, friend.

Right now I am mad as hell! Ever feel like you being played? That's how I feel today. The worst is being played by someone with NO GAME! What does that say about me.? Too damn gullible that's what. This pretty much sums up this ISH!

Ex-factor
It could all be so simple
But you’d rather make it hard
Loving you is like a battle
And we both end up with scars
Tell me, who I have to be
To get some reciprocity see
No one loves you more than me
And no one ever will

Is this just a silly game
That forces you to act this way
Forces you to scream my name
Then pretend that you can’t stay
Tell me, who I have to be
To get some reciprocity see
No one loves you more than me
And no one ever will

Hook:
No matter how I think we grow
You always seem to let me know
It ain’t workin’
It ain’t workin’
And when I try to walk away
You’d hurt yourself to make me stay
This is crazy
This is crazy

I keep letting you back in
How can I explain myself
As painful as this thing has been
I just can’t be with no one else
See I know what we got to do
You let go and I’ll let go too
’cause no one’s hurt me more than you
And no one ever will

Repeat hook

Care for me, care for me
I know you care for me

There for me, there for me
Said you’d be there for me

Cry for me, cry for me
You said you’d die for me

Give to me, give to me
Why won’t you live for me